#15 - Internal Thoughts

Hello everyone,

I hope you all are doing well. I sit here and I feel great. I had a couple conversations today that grounded me and made me think. I enjoy topics and conversations that require brain power.

However, earlier in the day I was a little shaken up. I had said something jokingly to someone I care about. When I reflected on it, I realized how maybe that person on the receiving end could have misinterpreted what I was saying and I had a sour feeling in my gut.

I sent out a message to make sure everything was alright. It was. I was overthinking.

That situation made me think about myself and how easy it is to just say something. Literally, we can say whatever we want. It takes some thinking, being open, and maybe some restricting to fully convey our thoughts.

It’s absolutely mind-boggling to me our ability to speak and also understand language. We make noises with our throat box. It’s a pretty powerful thing but can be destructive for sure. I’d like to just bring awareness to our ability to speak and understand. I think it’s beautiful and part of how I’m able to write these words you’re reading right now.

But to get back, I was feeling a little uneasy about what I said. So, I sent a message out, went out in the sun, did some breathing, drank some water and also helped my mom for 15 minutes.

After that I truly did feel better internally and was able to center myself and control my thoughts a little better. Those are practices I’ve experimented with over the past year or so and I know I can use them when I’m feeling off about something I said or did.

I love you all. I hope you have a great week.

Ben