#74 - Bartending Peeps

Hello beautiful people, I hope you all are doing well! I feel as if I have hit a breakthrough in the last week or so. I have implemented a little mary jane usage in my life and it has allowed me to look at myself from a different perspective lol, or maybe I have substance abuse issues.

I have been focusing a lot on myself lately and it has been nice. I believe a big contributing factor is being a bartender and not a manager, not that I ever was a big time manager, I preferred the lower level stuff. What I mean is, at both of my jobs, I can bartend then go home and not have to think about work once I clock out, whereas with managing it is always this looming anxiousness waiting for the next thing to go wrong. When I’m just a bartender, I truly do not give a fuck. Excuse my language, I have been trying to stop cursing for about 6 years now and nothing seems to work, fuck me.

I’ve been wondering how much time I have left in Houston. I truly believe I have accomplished all of my goals here and there is nothing left for me here. I have a few tricks up my sleeve, hoping one will take shape this year, we shall see.

I hope all of my bartender friends are doing well, I know I can say some harsh things sometimes and can be an asshole but I really do love the network of friends I have made the last 4 years, a lot of driven people with greater goals for their lives than bartending. I am learning to be more creative and more importantly trying to love myself and others. We’ll see how that works out.

Peaceeeeeeeee!

#73 - $9.99

Hello beautiful people, it is Friday night around 9:30pm and I am getting ready to head into work for 11pm. I went out for drinks last night with a friend and we had an awesome time. I haven’t gone out like that with another person in a long time. We had some awesome drinks, delicious food, and played bingo!

I found some lectures from Alan Watts on Spotify and they are amazing. We have come a long way to be able to access these types of lectures from my phone into my headphones, and all for $9.99 a month.

I’ve been off of social media for the most part, checking it on my laptop, but staying away from it on my phone. It has drastically improved my mental health, and I will work on my creativity next.

I hope you all are living your truth and becoming more and more comfortable/loving with yourself. I am trying to, but must come with time. I’ve been trying to live in the present and remove myself from the “Rat Race” as society calls it, and to simply enjoy being alive, as that can be taken from us at any moment. I’m not sure I have any strict beliefs either, as they are always changing with different perspectives each day.

Another thing I’ve been thinking about is regret, whether that is regret for doing something, or regret for not doing something. I’m not sure what I think of it as maybe regret is a part of life, or maybe there is no such thing as regret, it’s a game our minds play on ourselves.

Anyway, enough of my nonsense, I love you all and wish you all the best in your endeavors whatever they may be!!!

#72 - New MacBook

What is up my beautiful people, hopefully everyone is doing well going into the holiday season. What a hell of a summer and hell of a year honestly. I had plenty of ups and downs this year, had a total of four jobs thus far in the service industry, and currently working two of those jobs. I learned so much about myself this year and hope to keep that going as I turn 30 in two months!

I’m trying to flip my mindset into loving the holiday season. The last few winter holidays have been extremely tough for me mentally. I have always hated the winter time and love the summer, which is ironic because I was born in December. I’m trying to change that this year.

I had some useful shopping finds this year. I am not by any means a materialistic person, but I have found some useful things this year including a fanny pack, some off brand Birkenstocks, non slip work shoes, and up until a few days ago, a MacBook. I always wanted a MacBook, and put it in my mind and pockets around June to save up some extra dough, and I accomplished that goal and pulled the trigger. It is currently what I am typing on right now, and so far I love it!!

I wanted to touch on comparing myself to others. It has been one of my biggest struggles throughout my life. I think it may stem from childhood or playing sports. I am not exactly sure, but I have always compared myself to others, and now that I am in my adult life, I am trying to combat that or use it to drive me into a better direction versus dwelling on it and letting it get to me. If anyone else has the same struggle let me know, even though I know no one reads these.

I love you all and hope you all have a great life! Focus on yourself and try to be the best version of yourself that you can be. I should probably take my own advice!!

Peace, Ben

#71 - Almost 30 Merry Christmas

What is up beautiful people!!!! I hope everyone is feeling blessed this holiday season. I turned 29 last week and let me tell ya, I feel like shit. I’m kidding I feel great. Seriously though, life should be taken a day at a time, focus on getting better every day whatever that may mean for you.

I’m not sure I had any expectations for life at 29. I am better now than I was four years ago which is all that matters to me. I do feel almost 30, but I feel great physically and mentally. I do believe years of working out have helped me stay feeling young. If any 29 year old’s are out there and want to let me know how your life is going that’d be cool haha.

On a brighter note, I will be going home to New Orleans for about a week for Christmas and the week following, so that shall be a good time. I did go home for Thanksgiving, but I need to make up for some time lost over the last few years. I have been in Houston and barely went home since I’ve been here. Which is fine, I am an adult after all, but I do love my family. That is normal for a functioning adult male human species, right?

Life is good, I am grateful. I can say I am in a better place this winter than I was last winter, mentally speaking. I love all of you, whoever you may be out there reading this! I hope you all have a great Christmas, life is hard, but love is out there in many shapes and sizes, and it can come from anywhere. It can come from within and come from others. Something I’ve struggled with all my life is loving myself, but I will keep trying. Merry Christmas!!!

#70 - Got My Life Back

Hello all of you beautiful people. I truly hope everyone is doing well! I’m kind of embarrassed it took me this long to write a post, but what a year it has been!

Where to start? I accomplished some goals of mine this last year or so. I paid of my college loans which had been lingering over my head for a while. Back in May or June of 2023, I got an email saying that payment of college loans will be starting back up at the beginning of October. I decided in that instance, you know what, I’m going to pay these suckers off. It was about a three month plan, but mixed with my savings account and my monthly income, I was able to pull it off. The loan amount I had left to pay off was about $21,000. I made some sacrifices, but overall, I am happy with my decision.

Next, and let’s back pedal a bit here. In August of 2022, I received a call from my lawyer with some great news regarding some legal trouble that my dumbass had gotten myself into a few years back. I won’t get into details here, if you were around me at all, I have probably told you. I honestly may have told too many people, but it is a part of my journey so fuck it. Long story short, I am free and clear of all charges, etc. and happy to move on with my life. This issue was the biggest stressor on my life from 2019-2022, so to have it figured out, I felt like I took back some control of my life.

Next, I was able to muster up enough money to buy myself a new car, which again, if you know me, my previous car was actually illegal to drive and some would consider to be a death trap. I am not one to get attached to material objects, and I am not attached to my new car, but I will say it is a nice improvement to my life. However, when I found out how much I will be paying in car insurance a month, I nearly jumped off the balcony at my work. Suicide is never the answer, but when it comes to car insurance, you may want to consider it.

Those are the three main goals I have accomplished in the past year or so. I am also proud of myself for moving up to a management position at my work, which has increased my income and allowed me the luxuries of my current life. I still have plenty of goals just like everyone else, but I’d be lying if I said the past few years did not have me reevaluating how I see myself. I learned a lot and have become stronger because of it. I also let myself go in the winter as far as fitness goals and what not, so I have brought that back under my control and consider myself to be in relatively good shape.

Fitness is definitely a huge part of my life, and I feel when I am fit, the rest of my life is better, and I am not talking crazy fitness level here, just basic every day type shit. I look forward to hopefully writing more on here. I need to start small with writing, it seems to work well in other areas of my life when I start with once a week, or once every other week etc. We shall see. This blog is not a huge priority of mine, just something to vent and write down things I’m thinking. Anyway, that is enough of my nonsense. I love you all and hope everyone is living a loving and fulfilling life!!

Peace!! <3

#69 - Peace, Ben

What is up beautiful people! It is Friday, May 27th. I have been extremely busy the past few months, but everything is going well. I have been busy with work and staying active in my life, setting up some goals for the future and planning the next move in my life. I have a few options, just up to me to make the decisions. Anyway, enough about me. I changed my Instagram name to bennyelectrixx, I am trying to be more active on social media, personally I don’t give a shit, but just seems like something fun to do. If you want to link up maybe record a podcast or simply catch up, send me a DM through there. If anyone ever wants to chat let me know. Talking with people through interesting conversation may be my favorite thing to do.

I hope all of you have a great weekend. Love others and Love Yourself.

Peace, Ben

#68 - Sometimes Love is Saying No

What is up beautiful people. I hope you all are doing well!. I’ve been working a ton on the weekends and meeting a bunch of beautiful people. I am currently sitting in a coffee shop near my apartment. I switched over from having a beard to shaving my face and it feels good. I don’t understand why, but I feel more like myself without a beard. I am deeply in love with the idea of waking in the morning to shower, brush my teeth, have a nice shave, maybe take a dump, and washing my face, and not particularly in that order.

Anyway, enough of my morning gratification process that is way too much information. A few weeks ago, I went to see Sean Patton. He is a comedian from New Orleans that is a New York comedian from my understanding. I listened to him on a podcast and he mentioned he was coming to Houston, so I looked up tickets and boom there I was a few days later. He was hilarious. I love his style and relate to him in certain ways.

I have not been putting out much content, and it’s because I am focusing more on simply living my life. I am fascinated by the idea of not telling everyone on the internet what is going on in my life, especially since that is exactly what I am doing right now. I enjoy the idea of success without posting/bragging online. I do speculate our mental health issues as a generation are tied to our social media use, but that is for another day.

There are a lot of expressions for what we believe life is like. Life is like a roller coaster, or life is like a wave, what goes up must come down. These are all fun and maybe are rooted in some truth. Sometimes I think we are similar to bacteria. We’re inhabiting this planet and no one really knows why. We all make up reasons for what we believe, but we’re all going to die.

HA! Honestly, I’m just bored and sitting in this coffee shop so I can charge my phone, so then I can talk to my parents. Just to give you a heads up, those thoughts you read above are thoughts crossing my mind somewhat frequently.

Y’all have a great week and show love to everyone. Sometimes love can be saying no and/or making hard decisions. Peace.

#67 - ALEX MIGLIORE

Hey Alex,

I hope your spirit is doing okay. We all miss you in this part of the universe. I’m forever grateful for the memories we got to share together. Your energy and spirit were warming and popular. Anyone I met that knew you always smiled when I mentioned your name. I know you’ve touched a lot of people’s lives through your 26 years on this planet, but your spirit will live on forever through everyone who knew you.
Age is just a number, but how you make people feel will last forever. I miss you buddy and I know a lot of other people do too. You are a beautiful person. One of the funniest, goofiest, and socially gifted people I ever met. We miss and love you!

You will always live in our hearts!

Amen

#66 - More Plates More Dates

Someone I have been listening to recently is Derek from More Plates More Dates. He has been blowing up recently. He went on Joe Rogan’s podcast and recently had a podcast with Dan Bilzerian which was honestly great. If any of you scramble through YouTube or the inter webs give him a look.

It’s 2:48am right now as I’m writing this and these late nights are an eerie feeling. Over the past eight to nine years I have been a night walker and not necessarily by choice. I don’t know if I’ll ever go back.

#65 - Beauty in the Struggle

What is up you beautiful people! I hope everyone is doing well. I believe I am. Some things going on in my life are work, taking care of dogs, and trying to keep up with friends. As we all know, basic life shit. I have some ideas for my future and things I want to accomplish. A goal of mine within the next ten years is to travel all across the planet, maybe live in some huts somewhere. At 27, I would had hoped to travel more, but what good does it to look at things I hadn’t done yet.

Life goes on and does anyone know why we are here? What is the meaning of life? Is it to be successful? To love other people? Have faith there is something more? I think life is absolutely insane, more so the idea of even existing.

We are civilized to death, at least where I live. I wonder if we are robbing ourselves of life by being too comfortable. I, myself, believe my life is way to comfortable and so I am seeking ways to become more uncomfortable. And I don’t mean stupid shit like working out more or getting in cold water. I mean putting myself in different environments and testing my will to live. Now, what does that entail? Fuck if I know, but I’ll try and find out.

Anyway, I love everyone. I have built a community of friends/family here in Houston and I am forever grateful to have met everyone I know. Also, something crazy I’m noticing about my life is becoming friends with a decent amount females. I’m not sure if that is me working in the service industry, which is about a 50/50 male to female ratio or a reason I cannot explain, but I enjoy it.

And I’ll tell you what, I’m not sleeping with any of them. I guess there is beauty in the struggle.

#64 - Life is Moving Forward

What is up beautiful people. It’s been a while, but everything is good! I hope my people in New Orleans are staying safe! Life is good over here. I have a few big decisions that I need to make for my future, but time will tell and action will be taken. Anyway, I’m super grateful for today and am hopeful for the future.

I’ve been slacking lately on my diet and working out, but it’s coming back for sure. I forgot how good it feels to wake up and get a little workout/movement in. I hope y’all have a great weekend.

Peace & Love

Ben

#63 - The New Guy

Hello beautiful people! It is a Friday afternoon and I’m getting ready to head into work. I have been kind of down recently and it stems from a few different things. One of the main issues is on my days off I need to have something planned. I wake up with no purpose and over time that can play a huge role in my mood. In my free time, I check social media and really get the feeling that I am not doing enough with my life. Thinking like that can go two different ways, on one end, it can spring you forward and say yes I can do more and I will, and on the opposite end can be a negative thing, which in my case, tends to happen. I wonder how long are we supposed to sit down and do nothing. Again, I think that can go two ways, it can allow you to sit back and think about what to do next or it can allow you to distract yourself from your current situation.

We all must have some kind of purpose, right? I struggle the most trying to prove myself as a man, to be this “Macho Man,” but really I don’t want to be that. I get super insecure around the masculine man type haha. I know it seems silly, but I think I’ve always struggled being myself. I’m not sure if it stems from childhood or plenty of different aspects of my life. I do believe a lot of things are natural tendencies like being sad and depressed, or hopeful and driven. They all have their purpose. That’s why I don’t take any medication because I believe we are supposed to go through these different feelings in our life.

Overall, I am struggling to find a purpose. I’m not sure what to do with my life. I love all the people in my life that I have met and am grateful for that. I have had a great life so far if you were to look at it objectively. My mother and father did everything for me and I will always be grateful. Being 26 is a weird age and there is no education on what to be doing at this age. I guess we should be in our careers at this point trying to make money. I make too many excuses for my life which I am working on. Part of me feels like a bitch for even writing this stuff haha.

Anyway, a positive is I feel like I’m making headway on my cursing habit. When I reflect on it, I do believe a lot of it had to do with an incident that happened in my life and I was using cursing as a gateway. I was frustrated with my life, so I would curse all the time. Part of me will still curse every once in a while, but it was getting out of hand. I was cursing all the time on my podcast, in front of my parents, and in front of strangers really which is not a good look haha.

I guess life is a pursuit of building confidence and being comfortable with one’s self. I believe you can build those through physical skills. Learning new skills and getting comfortable being the new guy because I mean that is what we all are throughout our life, the new guy.

#62 - Fat Boy

What is up beautiful people. It is the last day of March 2021 and also a Wednesday. I am off from work today so I am running a few errands. I went to the gym and am currently at the bank depositing some money. I’m currently sitting in a chair at the bank waiting to speak to someone about upgrading my credit card. It’s a weird game we play with money where we use credit to basically go into debt and in return we get points to use towards something we may use such as flights, money back, or other crazy consumer ideas. I’m not sure I’m even doing the right thing but I think my credit is good. Mind you, all of this is based on whether we will pay back this “money” we are spending. It’s not even money really it’s all just numbers in our accounts. What a wild game.

I would say I am somewhat responsible with money. I do enjoy saving and only spending on things I need and sometimes splurging on things I want. For example, I’m going to go to a Chinese buffet when I leave here. I only go there for the sushi. That is literally all I consume and it’s only $15. If I ate the amount of sushi at this place at a regular sushi restaurant it would cost me $75-$80 so maybe I am a good budgeter or I’m just fat.

#61 - Kasey Kasey

Dang that was a fast three months. Different things have happened in my life recently and I believe it’s for the better. The last year was definitely a rough one for many reasons but a lot of good has come from it. I’ve also had a few good things go my way recently which definitely is good.

What inspired me to write today was actually a comment someone made on my page. A person by the name of Kasey. I will reply to her in hopes that she sees this! I have a couple of questions for you.

Anyway, I am going to put more effort into this. Part of me wants to write for this site using my laptop, but to be honest my laptop is such trash compared to my phone, which I am using right now to type this. I would love to see the numbers, but I’d be willing to bet laptops won’t be around in 50 years. That is only a guess so don’t take my word for it, but I’m literally writing this on my phone, and if you were watching me write this, it would seem as though I’m texting someone. I was having trouble logging into my account on my laptop so I literally downloaded the squarespace app and started typing this within minutes of making the decision to use my phone. I don’t know if it’s me being stubborn or what but it is way easier using my phone. I will probably use both tools in the future.

I want to give a shout out to a few people. First, Kasey, for inspiring me to write this post. I’m curious if we know each other! You said you were Metairie born and Catholic raised just like myself! I hope we can talk more. I appreciate the feedback.

Two, shout out to my friends Pat and Jordan. I see they have started a YouTube channel and I wish them all the best. They truly are some of the most entertaining people I know. And third, shout out to everyone. I hope you all are living well, taking care of yourself, and looking forward to the good times to come and trying to be present in the now. Some of the best lessons I’ve learned the past few years have absolutely sucked the life out of me, but as I said, I believe that it all passes and on the other side is a great lesson to be learned!!

Thank you all! I love you! I have to go to work!!

#60 - I'll Catch You on the Flip Side

What is up you beautiful people!! I am in my apartment writing this on a Friday night and life is going well. My birthday was last Saturday so my roommate Matt and I went downtown for some drinks. We ended up starting way too early and drinking way too much, so we ended up back at our apartment around 9pm haha.

I received a job offer this past week with an independent State Farm contractor in a starter role that begins on January 4th. I am looking forward to giving that my best effort and seeing what opportunities come with it.

I have two weddings to attend in New Orleans within the first two and a half weeks of January so that should be fun. My friend Jordan and his future wife Tess who I have known for a long time. They’ve been together for what seems like forever and I am extremely happy for them. Then, my brother Jeremy and his wife Bailey. Jeremy is a great person/friend and an even better father. Bailey is a wonderful mother and beautiful person as well and I love them and their son Jackson. I could go into detail about how I know both of these couples, but maybe I’ll save that for a later date haha. I wish both couples the best in their future endeavors.

Overall, things are going well in Texas. I have a few goals for this upcoming year. I want to pay off another chunk of my college loans and learn how to use/shoot a compound bow. I believe those are both achievable goals.

I’ve been working overnight the past couple days for a company making medical gowns in large quantities. It’s not hard work but the hours are 11pm - 5:30am and it’s about 45 minutes from our apartment, so it can be a little rough on the body if one is not used to those hours. Thankfully, I have worked in a bar for the past seven years, so late nights are not foreign to me. I’m about to go into work now actually so we’ll see how that goes.

Anyway, I’m also looking to start a YouTube channel again simply for fun. I got a little down on myself one night with my previous channel and said screw it and deleted the channel. Probably not smart to delete all of that work but it is what it is baby.

Take care everyone. I’ll catch you on the flip side.

#59 - Moving to Texas

Hello people people!

I have been in Texas for a week now. Things are going well so far. I had a job interview with an independent State Farm contractor the other day and I believe it went well. Our living arrangements are going well so far too! My biggest goal right now is to maintain a positive attitude and learn from all my experiences. It’s been a while since I’ve written on here so I thought I’d get one in today. I just finished a workout, which was probably my best one since I’ve been here.

Last night for Thanksgiving, my roommate Matt, friend Eric, his wife and kids, and I went to this guy Mike’s house and had a blast. He’s this sort of Texas country guy that is cool as shit. We drank, we dipped, played beer pong, cornhole, and a game that Mike made up that involves drinking while flipping a hammer and trying to nail the other person’s nail on this big, round, cylinder board, (I don’t know what the board is called) but it’s the most Texas country shit ever and it was fun as hell.

Something else I’ve learned too is I love hanging out with kids. I always have but it’s been a while for me so I lost that feeling. We’ve been hanging out with our friend Eric and his wife and kids as mentioned above and it’s been great. I honestly miss the kids when I am not around them. Shit is freaking crazy and they’re not even my kids. It’s crazy how one can form a connection with kids or people in general and it’s only been a week. I am excited for the future.

Anyway, I love you all and I hope you all are doing well!!! Thank you for reading

Ben

#58 - Is There Something Wrong?

Hello everyone. It is Friday night, October 16th, and I just got home from a friends house. It was nice to catch up with some buddies and have a chill Friday night. I feel calm right now. I went to the gym tonight when I got off work to swim some laps and sit in the sauna for a while.

I did not look at any social media today because I deactivated my Facebook and Instagram this morning, then deleted the Snapchat app off my phone. It felt amazing because the past few weeks have been rough with constant overuse of my social apps which led to extreme anxiety. It is definitely not healthy to be looking at other people constantly throughout the day. While swimming laps, I had a constant feeling of distraction, feeling like I needed to check my phone, and that I needed to be somewhere when I did not. I was not living in the present moment at all. It’s crazy how much of an impact these things have over our lives.

Are we our past mistakes? It seems as though they can come back to haunt us at any moment. I try and say what I truly feel about my past when moments come up. I was so insecure and had a desperate need to fit in. The drinking culture is rampant where I’m from as I’m sure it is everywhere and no one bats an eye. Don’t get it wrong, I do enjoy drinking. I think it’s funny what our society chooses as drugs of choice and others which we shun for using certain drugs.

My point is that I use to drink heavily so that I could fit in and would basically make a fool of myself if it made me cool in the eyes of my peers, but on the inside I was drowning in my own mess without knowing how to get out. My whole life was based on insecurity that was bred from my childhood.

I feel that I never had true confidence in myself, a constant feeling of I can’t do that because I’ll fail, then what will people think of me, or what will I think of myself. It seems people are going to talk about people regardless of what we do. I do want to achieve great things, but I can’t tell if I want to do it to prove people wrong or if I want to do it for myself. Is either right or wrong?

I’ve definitely been depressed the past couple months. Waking up super late because I don’t have anything to do, then always criticizing myself for not doing enough, which in turn makes me want to go to sleep and hope it’s different when I wake up. I think I want to live a quiet life without putting all my shit out there for the world to know. I want to do it for myself, not for other’s validation. Is that what self-confidence is? Is there something wrong with me?

I enjoy the night time, there’s something peaceful about it. I wonder what my life has in store for me.

#57 - Weekend of Partying

Hello to you all, it’s Tuesday morning, October 13th. The weather is beautiful here in Metairie. I have some exciting news coming up, but it’s not definite yet, so I will not share till then.

I worked out this morning with a friend and a new friend. I enjoy meeting and working out with new people. We had a good workout, hit the sauna and cold plunge, then ate some breakfast and headed our separate ways. I came home to take a nap and am now writing this while preparing for work at 1 o’clock. I also need to hit the grocery store after finishing all my food last week and to get back on track after a weekend filled with drinking and eating junk.

Anyway, I wouldn’t mind some interaction on here and maybe other sites. I do think we need to bring back positive or even basic communication to social sites. I believe it shows just how vile we can be when left up to our own devices. Facebook is a cesspool for hate. I posted on there yesterday looking for some feedback and to connect with people and share some thoughts. It actually worked out in my favor, so I’m wondering if maybe I’ll post random thoughts and questions on there to keep up my little experiment. Part of me doesn’t care and part of me is looking for some fun and engagement.

I don’t have much to say today, but am trying to get into the habit of typing on here. I feel my hobbies and things of the sort are like roller coasters going through periods of doing things everyday and feeling good, then periods of not giving a shit whether it gets done or not. I’m not sure if it’s procrastination, or feeling like I have time, or staying too comfortable when I shouldn’t, probably a mix of them all.

I know when I start comparing myself to other people is when I do the most harm to myself and my thoughts end up paralyzing me.

Those are just some thoughts from the day. I hope you all have a good one. Be well.

#56 - It's Been So Long

I hope you beautiful souls are doing well. It’s been so long since I’ve been here, a little over two months to be exact. Not much has happened since then, a few celebrations and doing basic human activities.

I am born and raised where I am currently writing this, which is Metairie, Louisiana, but I have a calling to move elsewhere and I believe it may be soon. I’m struggling because I do not have a solid plan, and all of my friends, except for one, which is the one that may be moving with me, are staying in our hometown for the long run.

There is not a problem with that, but it doesn’t seem like the path for me. Honestly, in this moment, I’m not sure what I picture myself doing in the future. Is there another way to make money other than the conventional way of doing it? Does technology bring potential new ways of making money? Maybe so.

I also seem to have fell into the trap of going into debt for one of the most bullshit of bullshit college degrees, which I will not mention. Now, I am working to pay off that debt, and am also a true believer in social skills to get you where you want, and in the quote, “It’s not what you know, it’s who you know.” So, I don’t feel completely threatened by that debt.

To combat some of my financial anxieties, there is a lot more I could be doing, including praying, which I may do after typing this, less time on my phone, reading more books, playing guitar, and stopping a masturbation habit.

I know that’s maybe a little too much info, but my point is to be honest. Something that initially attracted me to Joe Rogan was his older episodes where he would say things that ran through my head about insecurities, how to approach life, and a slew of other things. Some may say he was being immature, but to me, it was like he opened a portal into my soul and my being poured out into the world. Okay, maybe that’s a little much, but seriously, I freaking loved it. I personally enjoy the episodes #1 - #1000 the most. I think we’re all putting on a front when we go out into the world and I don’t blame us, it’s arguably necessary.

I’m not saying I’m right either. I think it’s funny how so many people have different belief systems while so many have the same ones. I think we could make an argument it’s a cultural thing. America is a very go getter society and maybe other cultures are more relaxed, I haven’t been across the planet so I’m not exactly sure but I’d be willing to bet there’s differences between cultures.

I don’t know where I’m going with this one honestly, my only goal was to write something. Thank you for reading. Check out my podcast, I’m in the process of changing the name, so we’ll see how that goes, but for now it’s Ben Gambino Podcast on Apple Podcasts and Spotify.

#55 - Feeling like a Woman

Uh oh, I’m writing two in a day. What a feat of accomplishment. I can’t control myself.

LoL

Anyway, I hope you all are doing well. I wonder if I can break the rules of grammar? I mean technically this is my website and I can put whatever I want on here. It’s pretty crazy I know, but I don’t want to sound like an idiot either.

I needed to fast today. I am currently sitting in my kitchen typing this while drinking some bone broth. I bought some broth from Trader Joe’s and I’m not going to lie, it’s pretty good. I may go for a walk after this to watch the sun set and think about what I want for my future.

Sometimes I feel confident and sometimes I feel like a little bitch.

I hope you all are living a beautiful life. Peace.